P.A.N.D.A. Revolution

the war... started and still fighting..

2009-10-20T00:24:00.000-07:00

the war... started and still fighting..

nighttime.. the worse nightmare for me now..
alone.. in my own world..
i'm listening to 郑中基's 答应不爱你..

the heartbreaking lyrics..

明明爱很清晰却又接受分离
我只剩思念的权利
难过还来不及爱早已融入呼吸
不存在的存在心底

虽然很努力练习着忘记
我的心却还没答应可以放弃了你
真的对不起答应了你不再爱你
我却还没答应我自己

明明爱很清晰却要接受分离
我只剩思念的权利
难过还来不及就让爱融入空气
不存在的存在心底

说好要忘记偏偏又想起
原来我的心还没有答应放弃了你
真的对不起虽然曾经答应了你
我却还没答应我自己
却又如何真的不爱你

Click here to listen

when i was listening to this song.. so many images flashed thru my mind..
my heart sank..

all those happy times.. when is it coming back?
all those heartbreaking moments.. when will it ever end?

god.. gimme strength.. please..
why are u putting me thru all these?
dun u love me anymore?

It's Really Difficult To Be.. All By Myself..

2009-10-18T15:12:00.000-07:00

It's Really Difficult To Be.. All By Myself..

*To whoever is reading this.. especially the ones who know him.. please.. do me a favor.. dun ask him what happened.. and keep it to yourself.. promise?*

I was grumpy and frustrated the whole day yesterday. I felt so guilty to show attitude to my loved ones (my family).. I'm sorry..

why do i have this bad habit of keeping things to myself?

before i sleep, i cried..
after i woke up, i cried..
my eyes are dry..
but my tears won't stop flowing down my cheeks..

It's Really Difficult To Be.. All By Myself.. after 5 years.. that's half a decade..
i spent half a decade with the man i thought who loves me as much as i love him..

yesterday night, i called him.. spoke to him..
my world came crashing down when he told me..
"I'm tired.."

i shivered..

where is the man who used to be very concern about me?
where is the man who used to whisper I Love You to me?
where is the man who used to make me feel top of the world?

i have no idea..
suddenly, i felt so alone..

a song came into my head..

让我们重来好不好
再一次温暖的拥抱
求时间停在这一秒
倾听你的耳语心跳
许多事曾经是煎熬
回头看突然都明了
用一切换你的微笑

"do we still have a future together?"

"dun ask me.." he replied..

I Wish You All The Best

2009-10-17T12:04:00.000-07:00

I Wish You All The Best

the higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment..
when it comes to relationship..
it does not mean the longer you are together, the higher the chance you will marry each other..

Today..
my 5-year-plus relationship has come to an end.. somehow expected..
maybe it is woman's instincts..

*loss of words*
*choked*

do me a favor.. dun ask.. tq..

Dad's Car Got Scratched!!!

2009-09-28T17:19:00.000-07:00

Dad's Car Got Scratched!!!

My dad's black Toyota Camry was severely scratched this morning at Block 907 Jurong West Street 91 carpark. We believe that this incident happened today 28 Sep 2009, between 7.45am to 1.30pm. Please.. If you happened to live around this area and happened to see this or heard about it, please leave me a message. We will reward you if you provide the facts.

Clare's 21st Birthday @ One Rochester

2009-09-12T23:55:00.000-07:00

Clare's 21st Birthday @ One Rochester

Hunny.. nevertheless.. u're still my fav fav fav bunxzxz... u looked gorgeous tonight and u behaved as if you're drunk.. really.. no kidding.. lolz..

ok.. so.. you're 21!! and trust me.. time flies.. wahahhaha.. before you know it, you're 61!! gosh...

k la.. i think u'll still be as pretty as 21.. always.. lose me abit only.. lolz..

oh.. and hun bunxzx.. i'll taunt u with that "forgot abt BTG gang during cake cutting" incident each time i see u.. lolz.. u're dead meat!! *evil laughter*

love ya~

Good Luck to Thurston!! Miss you~

2009-08-27T17:25:00.000-07:00

Good Luck to Thurston!! Miss you~

5.45pm!! Arrr~ hurry!! dun wanna be late!! I need to send Mummy and Thurston to the airport by 6.30pm.. Thurston is representing Singapore to Brisbane, Australia for a skipping competition. This is the 3rd time already!! he also went Tokyo, Japan earlier this year.. *proud sister*

OMG.. terrible traffic!! my mood was terrible.. just had a fight with my bf and suppressing all my unhappiness inside while driving.. damn!

well anyway, felt better when we arrived at the airport.. 5mins late! hehe.. took lotsa photos for Thurston, Mummy and Yiting.. Lotsa briefing for them and we waited until 8pm before they depart..

at the departure area, we wave goodbye to Mummy and Thurston.. Dunno why.. I just feel like crying.. even though i know they will be back in a few days.. i just felt so empty.. arrr~ so emo... even while typing, i just feel like crying..

called my mum earlier today.. heard that she's enjoying herself.. great to know they arrived at Brisbane, Australia safe and sound!

Miss you, Mummy!!
Miss you, noisy boy!!

Best of Luck to you, Thurston!! Win all the medals back, ok? hahaa!!

(Me, Thurston and Yiting)

(Me and Mummy!!)

(Mummy trying hard to take a pic for us w/o shaking her hands.. lolz)

(Nothing beats self-taken pics!)

星火 by側田&唐素琪

2009-08-24T12:14:00.000-07:00

星火 by側田&唐素琪

I think it's a fantastic duet..

Watch MTV

Mixed Emotions

2009-08-20T23:28:00.000-07:00

Mixed Emotions

I went back to pack my stuffs and I saw my locker.. the one with the most post-it notes.. of course, most of them from Cara girl.. streams of mixed emotions rushing down my body.. goosebumps, heart sank..

(Last shot with my locker.. esp the post-it notes!)

i'll miss..
..the crazy video recording with my sony ericsson!!
..boring food near office!!
..Cara saying "F**k Spider"!!
..Soomei's messy hair while doing calling!!
..Yilee going crazy over phone calls!!
..the fun loving bunch!!

Meet up soon, ok?

(A shot before I removed them.. sobs..)

Saturday.. Door-Knocking.. Aijisen..

2009-07-11T22:17:00.000-07:00

Saturday.. Door-Knocking.. Aijisen..

Saturday door-knocking session with Cara and Sifon..

I was the 1st to finish my floors.. Super bored!

See Cara's pose.. So "cor-lor"!! hahahaha... then later act cute..
whahahaha

I imitating peeps who is forced to do survey.. hahaha..
oh! Prudential launched a fantastic plan for all ladies!!
Introducing PruSmart Lady II!!!

Late Lunch @ Ajisen, Jurong Point..
We were told that we are not supposed to take photo of this plate of err... *forgot the name*
but still.. *click click*

One Million Star Singapore PK Challenge

2009-06-28T23:15:00.000-07:00

One Million Star Singapore PK Challenge

Congratulations to the 3 (Diya, Zhiyang and Ai Jia) who are representing Singapore to Taiwan for the PK Challenge.

For me, many shocked and nice surprises on Sunday itself. 1st, it's the mixed up for my round 1 song choice. Then I totally forgot the lyrics just before I am going up on stage. I had to request for lyrics from the organizer to refresh my memory.. Sweaty palms, frowns, dry throat.. Argh!

The I received Cara's sms.. "Look to your left!" Aww!! Cara and the supportive H87 were here!! That's a nice surprise! =) Each time I turn my head around, I felt like a superstar.. Cos all the cameras flashing and hands waving.. I love you all!!

This is the 1st time h87 came to see me sing LIVE.. lolz.. and I hope I did not disappoint them..

After the whole event ended, Cara, Jiselle, YiLee and Michelle waited for me to have dinner together. We went to Carl's Jr @ East Coast Park "Playground". Just when we were about to turn our cars into the carpark, splash of fireworks started showering!! wow!! what a nice nice surprise again!! haha.. the girls said it is a celebration just for me! haha..

On the whole, I do feel a little disappointed because I really want to go Taiwan's 星光大道 and sing onstage. Not young anymore.. Dunno if I still stand a chance next time.. haha.. but as long as I'm breathing, there's still hope!! lolz..

BIG HUGS AND KISSES TO ALL WHO SUPPORTED ME THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE COMPETITION!!

Vote For Me! Contestant No. 15

2009-06-17T21:03:00.000-07:00

Vote For Me! Contestant No. 15

http://onemillionstar.starhub.com/vote.php

I got into Top 20!!!

2009-06-14T23:03:00.000-07:00

I got into Top 20!!!

I got into the top 20s for "One Million Star" PK Challenge Singapore!! Very very nervous cos I haven't been competing since the "Safra Radio FM 88.3 Birthday Celebration Duet Singing Competition". haha..

The results were out at 5pm.. I was the 4th finalist announced on that day.. Never thought I would have got it cos the judges only choose 20 out of 70+.. at that point of time, i felt excited, happy, unbelievable, nervous and "oh-shit-wat-am-i-going-to-sing-for-finals".. hahahaha

after announcement of the results, we took a few group photos, followed by individual footage to be placed online at the official website One Million Star 5 Singapore. You are able to vote for ME at the webbie!! hahaha.. I am contestant no. 15.. Thank you all in advance ah~

Anyways, I found these photos on Facebook and the official website.. Here goes..

I looked freaking stone while Q-ing to report for Semi-finals..

A group photo of the 1st half semi-finalists (taken @ the waiting rm) can c me?

Say Cheeze! I looked super duper silly.. ugly pic!!

My 1st Fake EyeLashes

2009-06-03T14:45:00.000-07:00

My 1st Fake EyeLashes

When my bf saw me with my new fake eyelashes, he said, "Take it off! NOW!" hahahaha.. WTH? lolz.. he was not used to it and had always prefer me without or light make up...

you know.. the amazing thing is.. after putting on the fake eyelashes, i looked as if i had put on make up.. which i didn't..

oh well, i like how i look with the fake eyelashes.. but i think it will look good for galas or clubbing.. too heavy for work.. :P

Next Wed's The Big Night!

2009-06-01T14:50:00.000-07:00

Next Wed's The Big Night!

yay.. finally meeting up with the farmies after so long.. (xmas, rite?) omg.. and as usual.. that cow is always missing from the picture..

if anyone is looking at this, pls inform me immediately if you spot a cow wandering around the streets with a SLR camera.. *moo*

So Many Many Photos!

2009-05-31T11:39:00.000-07:00

So Many Many Photos!

I guess this has to be the day in 2009 (29may09) where I took the most photos.. ahahaha.. :P

Daytime @ office..

Night time @ Butter Factory..
A total of more than 300 photos.. this is insane.. looking forward to break this record.. hahaha..

Boring Course @ Scotts

2009-04-21T13:39:00.000-07:00

Boring Course @ Scotts

Everyone in my agency has to go to Scotts at 9am today for a training.. It was pretty dry and no CPD hours!!?? lolz.. oh well.. after the training, SM, Cara, Sifon, Kim and I took the train back to office at Tanjong Pagar.. While waiting for the train (the train took more than 5mins to arrive), we took a few photos.. most of the pics are in Cara's NEW NOKIA phone.. here is a pic of us - The Babes..

Panda Bag

2009-04-20T17:41:00.000-07:00

Panda Bag

Hey peeps! If you happen to see a panda bag (pls refer to the pic above), let me know.
Thank you ah.. *hugs*

2009-04-18T22:28:00.000-07:00

Shifted

To all who have been reading my blog.
All the bitching will not be posted here in future.
I know, you read becos you are concern.
Please understand, I write becos I want to.

Bitching has been shifted.

Argh!!

2009-04-06T22:00:00.000-07:00

Argh!!

*moved to somewhere u cant see*

Declaration

2009-04-06T14:15:00.000-07:00

Declaration

I would be satisfied if/when I achieve SGD60,000 EFYC by 31st December 2009.

What A Day To Start Off With?!?!

2009-03-08T12:41:00.000-07:00

What A Day To Start Off With?!?!

*moved to somewhere you can't see*

Impressive~

2009-02-05T12:40:00.000-08:00

Impressive~

I was reading news on StraitsTimes.com and I came across this article on a 9-year-old boy, Singaporean who has been writing applications for iPhone. It's true when people say "Nothing is Impossible".

Click HERE to read it!!

@ Changi Airport

2009-01-29T07:17:00.000-08:00

@ Changi Airport

I am now at Singapore Changi Airport Terminal 1 waiting to board my flight to Hong Kong.. And yes, using the free internet access available for all @ the waiting lobby.. hehe..

I logon to Facebook earlier and was going thru my friends' updates and my notifications.. Suddenly, I just miss all the friends who were there for me when I needed them - especially Clare.. haha.. a true FARMIE..

Just came back from my Ipoh, Malaysia trip yesterday morning.. I love my family!! (wHAt's new eh?!) haha.. really enjoyed the time spent there.. Nothing beats the nice warm feeling and how secure you always feel when they are around you.. (Compared to the real world out there.. Always prepared to defend and attack.. *duh*)

Oh well.. I still have about 20mins before I board the plane.. I'll post the photos I took in Malaysia and "going to take" in Hong Kong after I come back!! and of course, the photos I took with my dearest Farmie - Bunxzxz... LURVES~

New Panda Dustbin

2009-01-20T18:01:00.000-08:00

[Something Happy - My New Panda Dustbin!!]

hehe.. finally.. blogging about something happy!!

Look!! My new PANDA dustbin!!

No Panda Escapes My Eye.. Hahahahaha!!!

Sorting It Out

2009-01-20T12:49:00.000-08:00

[Sorting It Out]

After the morning meeting earlier, i realized that I am too free.
Too much time spent on unnecessary things.
Too much time spent on unhappy incidents.
Too much time spent on Facebook.
Too much time spent on bitching.
Too much time spent on avoiding.
Too much time spent on ignoring.

And finally... Too little time for the important people, things and myself.

When my friends came to me and bitch about the "buay song (不爽）" incidents that happened. Without any hesitation, I told them, "What for you bitch and bitch.. And that person whom you bitch about do not even know that you are unhappy?!"

Well, it is easy for me to say but when similar events happened to me, I did the same - bitch. And it needs a hell lot of courage to talk things out with the person you had problems with. With my temper and my tolerant level, I am just afraid that things turn out as ugly as I anticipate.

And DEAR ALL (who has been reading my blog), I am so going to sort things out with the person whom has irritated me for the past 2 weeks and I had chose to ignore (after some thinking) tomorrow afternoon.

How will things turn out? Better I hope..

*We shall see*

Manging Anger

2009-01-18T18:36:00.000-08:00

[Managing Anger]

I was talking to Cara on the phone earlier bitching about some stuffs.. (for us to know, for you to find out thingy) and I have come to a conclusion about all things that has been bothering/irritating me for the past 2 weeks, and that is - Manage Them.

I came across this article at http://www.apa.org/topics/controlanger.html about Anger Management. There is this paragraph that teaches us to Keep Anger at the Bay. Here is an extract of it :

Relaxation

Some simple steps you can try:

Breathe deeply, from your diaphragm; breathing from your chest won't relax you. Picture your breath coming up from your "gut."
Slowly repeat a calm word or phrase such as "relax," "take it easy." Repeat it to yourself while breathing deeply.
Use imagery; visualize a relaxing experience, from either your memory or your imagination.
Nonstrenuous, slow yoga-like exercises can relax your muscles and make you feel much calmer.

Practice these techniques daily. Learn to use them automatically when you're in a tense situation.

Last but not least, THANK YOU all who has irritated me in the past and especially in the last 2 weeks. You had differentiated yourself from my friends to strangers. You are unworthy of my precious energy and attention and let's just let it remain this way.

Blogging is Meant for Bitching Too, right?!

2009-01-18T11:00:00.000-08:00

*moved to somewhere you cant see*

Random Activities

2009-01-08T16:49:00.000-08:00

I bought 梁文音's Album @ Bugis Junction.. That was the last one on the shelf so I guess the sales should be pretty good. I'm currently listening to it and my favorite songs are:

Track2 : 薄荷与指甲剪
Track3 : 雪雨
Track6 : 我不是你想像那么勇敢
Track7 : 最亲爱的 (OT I Love You Anyway)

Actually all the songs are nice but those mentioned above are my preferences. I think it is definitely worth your 19 bucks although I was hoping that they will include some bonus MV (Music Video) or The Making of the Album..

Me bought the album as promised..

Jiselle and Me~

梁文音，爱的诗篇

New Group Created in Facebook

2009-01-07T21:08:00.000-08:00

Hey.. I was wondering how many "facebookers" are actually bearing the same chinese surname (刘) as me.. So I created a group in FB..
http://www.new.facebook.com/profile.php?id=642784552&ref=profile#/group.php?gid=47017472330&ref=mf
Click to join/see!!

Am Watching 梁文音's MV on YouTube...

2009-01-06T23:22:00.001-08:00

I have always like Rachel Liang, 梁文音's performance in 星光大道II. She has a touching voice and good singing techniques. I am always looking forward to her album release so I can 高歌一曲 at KTV.. hahaha..

And yes! Her new album 爱的诗篇 was finally released last year December. Ok I admit.. I haven't bought it.. *opps* but I plan to purchase it today.. yes.. today..

Oh.. and I am now watching 薄荷與指甲剪 MV on youtube...

You can catch it @ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SXgN54D0NiU ENJOY!!